My Life Sucks!!! Really?

How many times have you said that?? in last few days/weeks/months/years?

I am one of the biggest complainer So in other words....yeah I like to complain all the time...If things are not going well...I complain, If thing are going well...I complain....even when there is nothing to complain I complain.... I am a professional complainer it is a hard job but someone has to do it right? I am trying to overcome this "problem" because it is a problem...I have decided that next time I am going to complain about something I will tell myself to think about it for a little while...and if I still think that it is worth complaining about I will go ahead and complain...but if it is not...I will go and find another topic to complain about ;-).

P.S. Yes It is a new world record for using word complain in one paragraph so many times.

Tears and Laughter

Have you been in situation where you are so sad that you can't help but laugh...I am one of those people who would start laughing when there is nothing to laugh about...I laugh at one of the most silliest moments when people around me are shocked and sad I end up showing my colgate smile :D and most of the time it does not go down well as you can imagine...so this has made me question why do I laugh when I am in trouble why why?

• I like smiling? Well I do but not all the time
• I am insane? Do you even have to ask that
• I like to make people happy? Yeah Right look at the point above

And after much thought I have come to realise that it is my defence mechanism...When I know that I cant do much in this situation I laugh/smile and it tells me that all is not lost there is still a hope...I think the day I stopped laughing about things I am not suppose to laugh at...That day I will start getting worried :-)

Hurdles and First Steps

Taking first steps are not easy...not just one step but steps...For some people it is the first step that will be difficult...For others it is the whole new journey that fills their heart with fear. Sometimes we forget that we are not the only one who is facing these hurdles...We like to blame ourselves, our families,our situations...But trust me no matter how hard it is for you someone out there is having the worst time...So dont worry held your head up high and take the first steps...It won't be easy...You will face hurdles but keep on walking... and believe that you are moving to somewhere better than where you are now and soon you will get there :-)

Thankyou

Thankyou once again for saving me....I was losing hope I was becoming distress and I did not know what to do....I was questionning why me even though deep down I knew somehow it was my fault,I was still hoping it would g away somehow it will be all sorted.

I cried because I knew it was not gona happen I moaned about it and then someone said to me be thankful things happen for a reason and I decided to have faith...Allah Mian u knew me intentions were not bad...I did not do it on purpose...But there are so many people who get the blame even if they dont do anything...But you had your mercy on me...U saved me once again...My parents Duas worked once again...I have learnt a lesson once again....and all I wana say is Thankyou for saving me life, I know I am not worthy of saying thankyou to u...because all my life I have sinned sometimes knowingly others un knowingly....But I promise I will try to improve myself...Give me courage and Guide me Allah Mian because without your help I will be lost once again....Thankyou Thankyou

What will these next few weeks bring?Only If I knew :-(

Another Hurdle

hmmm....and when I thought it was all going so well...But how could it...next monday can change my life for good or worse...It can ruin my life or can make it...Am I scared?Yes I feel numb and cold like nothing matters anymore...My friends are there with their supportive words that everything will be ok but will it? I want to pray to my Almight Allah...Allah Mian help me but I feel like...... I never pray, I even miss my 5 prayers which are fard and now I am gona pray to ask for Allah for help...why would Allah help me when I dont remember to say thanks when things are going ok and I am happy....But then again I have FAITH I know Allah wont let me down my parents prayers are with me.

Allah Mian help me...help me please...Noone can help me but just you I know I always ask when I am in trouble....But guide me to straight path because I am so weak....Help me.

Have Faith

For the last few weeks I had given up hope, I thought I was going to fail miserably once again and I had prepared myself for it...Today when I found out grades were out for that particular module I couldnt click on the button...I had sweaty palms...my heart was beating fast...and then I clicked and there it was in black and white I had passed the module with the marks I never expected to get...and I realised at that moment...that even though I had prepared myself that I will fail...I had hope and a faith...and my Allah did not disappoint me...And for that I am ever so thankful :-) Alhamdulillah.

Everytime something good happens to me I dont think I deserve it...but I still get it...so lesson for today is have some faith things will workout in the best possible way because someone is watching over you :-)

Strangers to Friends

It does not take long...sometimes few words...sometimes a smile...sometimes just a look.

Making friends is easy Keeping them is hard.........................................

Silence

Someone once said you can be alone amongst the crowd...Thats how I am feeling right now there are probably million of websites online...thousands of people blogging and millions of people reading...but noone is reading this blog...yeah its true you can be alone amongst the crowd...................

Be alone but never be lonely :-)

Trust

Who do you trust?

• Family
• Friends
• Strangers
• Yourself???

Anger

We all feel angry time to time....Anger doesnt matter its what we do with our anger that matters.

Whenever you feel angry....leave that place if you can...go out get some fresh air...If you cannot leave the place...close your eyes...and just ignore the reason/person who have made you angry.

Trust me it works...when we are in rage we may say and do things that we will regret later on...you can't take a word back once its spoken...so let your actions speak...say nothing in return trust me it is the biggest revenge.

NoOne Will Read This

I dont know why I am writing these posts...I know NOONE will ever read these...because quite frankly they are not worth reading...This is my mumble jumble, my thoughts. So why am I not writing them in a diary? Why writing them in a blog?

Hmmm Good question and the one I dont have an answer for....As I have said before I am not a writer and my handwriting is lets say not very good...According to my peers I can only read my handwriting so writing in a diary is out of the window.

Why not just type in word document....well I can do that But I dont want to do that simple answer :-) So I am here to write on a blog my blog which NoOne will read and few days,weeks,months or years from now I will read back these posts and think to myself what a silly phase was that WHY? because I am a human..........

Peace

Failures vs Success

All of us try to be the best people we can be...some of us succeed while others fail miserably....But does failing mean YOU have lost the battle? No failing doesnt mean you have lost...It just mean that you need to go around the track once more and then make another jump this time You will succeed because you have tasted the bitter fruit of failure.

If you fail dont give up....because the day you gave up that would be the day when you will FAIL...

Success doesnt mean we have won...It just tells us that we have been lucky this time we never had to taste the failure.

If you succeed dont forget to say Thanks to people who have helped you get to your dreams...Be humble but not too humble we dont want people to think success was just due to their help... we do need to have some self confidence ;-) ...

The line between success and failure is very thin......... one foot wrong and you will be on the other side REMEMBER THAT.

Peace

The Beginning

Who am I and Why am I here?

Do I like writing? No I am a silent reader type...

I am lost in my thoughts and this is the new adventure in my life....Lets see how it goes.