A happy bride?

She is going to get married soon...She is worried...She told me its nerves....But I know its more than that...I won't see her on her wedding day.

But I hope and Pray that you have a wonderful life and may your worries just fade away my lovely friend.

A simple Thankyou :-)

Thankyou sooooooooooooooooooooo sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much....I never thought it would be possible but I have done it....Its done..

Thankyou Allah Mian Thankyou

End before the Beginning

Why do some people make others life so difficult by being nice....Why why??

I know I shouldnt be even thinking about it...but I cant help myself and its not my fault is it???U wont even know what you have done :-( I am not going to do anything because its not worth it...Its all wrong...I should just ignore you....which I will from today....


Its ends here before even the beginning....Oh well its called life My life thats how it rolls.

The END

Lost

Wish it was simple
I just wish it was
But its not
So what do I do????
I have no idea
I am once again LOST

How i felt when I read about the result complete and utter loser...But then I realised I should be happy for all those people..Their hard work paid off and they deserve it...I should stop being angry about my shortcomings and weaknesses and move on...They deserve it...what if is not the question now... I need to make the best of my circumstances I am sure I WILL GET MY BREAK INSHALLAH.

New Start for her tomorrow

She is getting married tomorrow And I am sitting here thinking how she must be feeling. Exactly a year ago I saw her sobbing her eyes out and I thought to myself will she ever find happiness again. I have known her for four years and in these four years we went through all the emotions we could...and tomorrow she is starting a new journey once again...But this time she wont be alone..She has found a lovely companion who I hope and pray will stick by her through thick and thin.

I cant wait till I see her tomorrow...she will make an adorable bride...I cant believe my little friend is going to get married and I am going to be part of it...I am sure it will be one of the best days of her life and I wish her all the happiness in her life.

Battle within

I feel sick, mentally and physically....and I dont know what to do about it...I am so stressed that I cant concentrate on anything...and in result of that I am doing things I promised myself not to do ever again :-( I know its not an excuse But I am struggling and I dont know what to do....Sometimes you just go blank thats How I am nowadays...I have got no motivation what so ever...I feel sick...I feel sick and useless..

Why am I feeling this low...I think I have lost my self worth in my own eyes and that is one of the most degrading things ever when you can not look at yourself in the mirror...I feel like complete and utter loser...

I know I need to get up and sort myself out...It will be a struggle but I need to do this...For my own sake and sanity and for others.